And so he left to Genting, without even replying my calls from last night, nor bothering to gimme a call telling me he was leaving.

Fine.

As I was shuffling through his facebook, with no intention at all to spy on him, I stumbled across a familiar name. It was the name of his ex. That’s funny. Because I seem to remember him telling me his ex don’t play facebook.

And so I visited her profile. I scrolled all the way through the older posts, until I found what I had always feared, always suspected. It was a message from him to her, asking her when is she going to pay him a visit in Melaka.

Now, before I enter this long rant of how I’m feeling right now, I’d like to let you know that prior to this, I had met his ex only once, and that was when she left her bag in Melaka Sentral. That day, he called to tell him he’s with his ex right now, and there’re some complications (note: her lost bag). So I asked him wtf is she doing in Melaka in the first place, and he said he have no idea.

Let’s fast forward through the part I actually bought his story. Now. I can’t believe this. I refuse to. My eyes are deceiving me. And it’s not really helping with my mum yelling beside me to go and make up to my brother for picking a fight with him. I would love to yell back, “SHUT THE FUCK UP!”, but I’m filled with numbness and the long-awaited truth.

He lied to me.

I don’t know what to think now. I need to get away from here.

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I just feel so stupid.

Why bother being nice to someone, if all you get is faceful of insults, a handful of ungrateful bastards, and a roomful of idiots?

Why bother studying hard, if all you get is never good enough for your yourself, never good enough for your parents, never good enough for your teachers?

Why bother befriending somebody, if all you get is the mixed feeling of being a used toilet paper, important only at times of need, only to be disposed off immediately after?

Sometimes, it’s better to just be alone. Saves you all the headache and heartache.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/10/14/nation/20091014174021&sec=nation

I actually laughed out loud when I saw the new headlines in my homepage. Like, oh my god, didn’t they just claim they’re ready to change and “reach out to the younger generation”?

Welcome to the Ice Age, folks.

LOL good luck with that. By asking the government to ban local production of horror and fantasy movies, you just successfully killed off any chance of our pitifully lame movie industry to make it big in the country.

By further asking for a ban on FOREIGN horror and fantasy films, you scored again by losing all the faith of the younger generations had in you. If there’s any to begin with.

Honestly, this latest motion which was passed WITHOUT debate (How the fuck is that possible? Bribing?) is a joke. Horror films destroying faith? This is like Kenny saying anime will decrease your intelligence. How primitive can PUTERI be? When will they stop blaming everyone and everything for the lack of religious studies, but not look at themselves for the failure of providing it in the first place?

Stop blaming others, for god’s sake.

*sigh*

7 hours from now, all law students of June intake, 07/08, will begin their legal attachment all over Malaysia for the entire duration of second semester.

All, except one, one who’s not qualified to enter legal attachment because of a stupid mistake made last year.

One who failed 5 subjects in a row as a result of that mistake.

One who got terminated and reinstated from her university.

One who is a social reject everywhere she goes.

One who is tired of being told that “you’re not up to expectations”.

One who is sitting on her bed, typing this post at 1.32am in the morning.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/9/29/nation/4800034&sec=nation

After highlighting the issue of public whipping of Kartika for the entire world to see, it seems like Islamic extremists have no better things to do but to make a further fool of themselves in this recent statement of “We doubt whether she will obey the 15.2 and 15.3 codes set by the Malaysian Communication and Multimedia Commission while performing.”

Like, HELLO? What are you, her mum or something? How in the blazing stars will you KNOW if Beyonce’s not gonna adhere to the seemingly retarded, conservative dress-code in this country, populated by people like yourselves? Right after we were acknowledged as a ‘progressive Islamic country’ by the US, too.

Have you got no shame at all? It was stated in the news a couple days ago, that Beyonce promised to adhere to this stupid dress code. THAT, coming from an international singer / pop-star, coming to perform in OUR country, is a big deal. The concert’s gonna be a big hit. People will be coming from almost everywhere to watch this concert. But no, that’s not satisfactory enough for you. You want the WHOLE WORLD to know that Beyonce’s coming to our country to perform, and you want the WHOLE WORLD to know that she’s gotta stick to the dress code, and you ALSO want the WHOLE WIDE WORLD to know that you DON’T THINK Beyonce’s gonna stick to the dress code anyway.

What the fuck are you trying to say, PKPIM? You don’t TRUST her? What, you want a black and white agreement signed by Beyonce personally, swearing in the name of the sun, the star, the moon that she PROMISE she’ll dress decently, and you want to perform a wardrobe check on her when she arrive in KLIA on October 24th?

There’s only one thing I can say to you: You have bigger shits to worry about than a stupid dress code. Grow up.

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is an idiot. He sneaks into the house when he thinks everyone’s sleeping, but he daren’t stay around in the house for more than a minute, and sneaks out immediately after that.

Oh and thank you dad, for interrupting whatever I wanted to say here. You successfully killed my mood for talking and writing for this whole night. Enjoy getting the cold shoulder for this entire week.

As I was randomly trapping ghosts and mice, my boyfriend logged into my wordpress account secretively, and did THIS without me knowing.

And then, to make sure that I check my blog before I sleep, he claimed his firefox crashed when he tried to read my new blog posts, so I double checked it. I choked when I saw the new header.

So here’s a toast to my wonderful wonderful boyfriend, who’s supposed to be studying and not revamping his girl’s blog,  I love you. Muakkkkkssssssssss <3 Thanks dear >:3 I loved the new-er look! xD