Updates. Updates.

Why now, why not earlier?
Yep, you guessed right. Exams. Again. D;

Several things I’d like to clear up first.

1. I’m 21.

2. I’m staying in MMU.

3. I hope I don’t get kicked out of MMU.

Let’s do this then.

1. Being 21

I liek caek

Thanks mum&dad for the RM1,000 angpow. O.O That was a huge surprise. Not that I was complaining. I would be satisfied with my new necklace, but that was.. unexpected. <3 I promise I’ll pass it down to my daughter :3

Thanks kurobu (spy), amazhu (Hwey Li), zhulian (Jac), and Annie. Thanks for making me drink your ’special’ tonic before revealing that my dinner was paid for. I drank it for nothing. T-T

ew

But thanks for the self-made cake you guys made specially for me. Aw. You shouldn’t have. I feel bad for Ali’s bruise. :< But wow, that was awesome. You guys should become professional cooks. Open a cakeshop. I can help you guys make drinks. Also, thanks for the awesome cardigan and top, loved it xD

Special thanks to Mich and Tinny for the bearsuit and the hunter’s cap <333333333333333333333 Loved them so much xD You guys are too nice QQ

And last but not least, thanks sweetie, for the Hunter’s Cap, the gigantic hippo, and ‘Breaking Dawn’. T-T I can’t decide which I like best. Ok fine. Maybe I can. *stares at ‘Breaking Dawn’. Thanks for braving a dinner with my parents for me, thanks for attempting to buy me Nadeje cake for a couple of days (unsuccessfully till thursday, that is). You’re the best <3

2. I’m staying in MMU

As per title. Woohoo. Nothing much to explain, let’s just say that my parents finally realised they had the wrong impression all these while. A trip to Brickfields does the trick. :3

3. I might be kicked out from MMU

Yeah. Because, while worrying about the whole CLPshit, I decided to just screw all of my classes. For like, a month worth of classes. Not to mention missing a couple of mid-term examinations. And almost all of my assignments.

Basically, I dug my own grave. The assignments and the attendance and the mid-term constitutes to 40% of my total marks. 60% would be my finals. Which means, IF I don’t secure a 100% on my final, I’m screwed.

Yeah.

I think that would be all for my very, very, very late update. I just had a bad feeling in my stomach. I think I need to throw up. Good luck in your exams, readers.

Goodbye.

Now before I make this into a long and emo post, which I don’t want to, and I’m pretty sure you don’t wanna read about it either.

There’s quite a high possibility in me quitting MMU, and moving to KL for Brickfields Asia College, to continue studying law, as the law degree in MMU is not fucking recognized.

HOWEVER.

All of these are unconfirmed. I have 2 months left here, before I make my final decision.

The day before Valentine.

I haven’t gotten my boyfriend a card, let alone a gift.

Fuck.

/jumps off her balcony.

Love.

A heartbroken friend asked me today, what is love?

He’s apparently not over the fact that his ex dumped him for another guy, nor will he accept the fact that his ex is a bitch who used him like a toilet paper, discarding it when it gets dirty.

A distressed mum asked me today, what is love?

She doesn’t understand that it’s all her fault to begin with, and if she didn’t get all snappy at her husband for no apparent reason at all, they’d still be happily living together. Also, she thinks that apologizing is the sign of a loser. And so does the other party.

An enamoured lover asked me today, what is love?

In which I stroked his head, kissed his nose, told him to be good and go to sleep.

‘coz to be honest, I don’t know what the fuck is the definition of ‘love’. It’s just a feeling lah.

Age.

What’s the big deal, really? It’s just… a number. And maybe some wrinkles. Perhaps some strands of white hair. That’s all. Rea

Just went visiting my great grandma today. She’s 90+ (Yes, I failed to ask her age), and she’s still capable of taking care of a mini mart by herself. She looked just like any other old grandma’s. Except that she’s quite healthy, can walk on her own, heck, she can even cycle. You don’t get many old ladies like her these days.

But yes, she’s undeniably getting older, and she walks rather feebly, compared to her younger days. She however, stubbornly refused to let my mum aid her in walking towards the car.

After awhile, Mum turned to me and asked, “Scary, isn’t it. Getting old, not being able to hear, to walk.”

My bro chipped in, “I wish I can be immortal.”

Is that really what most people wanted? Immortality? To live forever, while watching loved ones slowly ageing, and dying, and you couldn’t do anything to prevent them dying, nor could you do anything to TRY and make yourself die. What’s the point of living, if you’re all alone while the world evolves around you?

To be honest, I’d rather just live happily, and die at a ripe old age. Not too old. But not too young either. 80+ would be ideal.

…

Oh god. I’m having suicidal thoughts.

Must it end like this?

I’m not in the mood to start from the beginning, so I’ll just go straight to the  point.

Mum’s considering a divorce with Dad.

Reason #1: Dad always sided with the maid when Mum scolds here.

Reason #2: Dad always go out with his friend’s family, while informing Mum that his friend’s family felt more like a family, than us, his actual family.

Reason #3: Not enough sex. (This is what me and my bro figured out).

I’ve tried reasoning with her, but it’s impossible. She’s impossibly stubborn, and now she’s demanding to know which side I’d take, if it really happens. I told her I won’t be taking any sides, and I’ll visit both of them regularly, while staying in my boyfriend’s apartment.

Yeah, I’m trying to let her imagine the worst case scenario, and make her think twice about divorce.

I watched Bride’s War today, and it somehow made me think twice about marriages. Will a marriage really turn sour just because of both sides refusing to give in to an argument?

Am depressed right now. I badly need someone to talk to, but the only person I’d call to talk about stuffs like these, is currently having a late night movie with some of his friends (call me paranoid, but I’m willing to bet anything his ex is there too).

I guess I’ll just stay up for 2.5 hours and wait for his call.

Life without laptop.

That actually tweaked my biological clock a BIT back to normal. A BIT.

It all started when my parents grew sick and tired of me waking up at 3pm and sleeping at 6am, so they decided to confiscate my laptop. I had to give them some credit for it, though. I now sleep at 2am, wakes up at 10.30am.

Nice try, mum, dad. Nice try.

So yeah, I’m basically allowed to use the laptop during daytime, when they’re awake. Which means, less RO, less animes, and stuff. Was boring as hell, but it made my parents happy. So in a way, made me kinda happy too. Not to mention, I actually went out with someone apart from Leo-chan.

Don’t worry dear, not cheating on you. :3

Was out with Terry and Thava a couple days back, and had some fun chatting about pink boxers with red hearts on gay guys, but it wasn’t so fun afterwards, when Thava pointed out that my zipper was undone.

I swear to god, I could’ve died just then. T_T

PS: I had an interesting chat about how female mind works, and that’s coming from a guy. O_o

Naruto is gay.

So, Naruto can defeat one of Pain’s body with a single blow now eh? Even after Pain just completely annihilated Konoha?

Pfft.

I really should stop reading that retarded manga.

PS: Hate life without laptop. Need to resort to stealing. =(

And here it goes again… Part 2

OMG SHE ACCEPTED IT!

^^v

PS: Currently having fun adding people to Facebook.

And here it goes again

There’re only 2 types of people in the world. One which leads a mundane life, nothing ever happens to them, or the same shit keeps happening to them. One which leads a colourful life, lucky bastards.

I group myself in between them. I have a colourful life, with the same shits happening every single fucking day.

My boyfriend, my loving family, my doggie, my friends painted my life. My boyfriend made it pink, my family made it red, my doggie made it golden, my friends made it blue. And yes. No green. Except during those unfortunate days which I fell sick. Urgh. No green. Please.

So… what’s wrong then?

All these while, I keep blaming my parents for not being understanding. But then I realised that it was my fault all along. So I decided to be a good girl. Even if I’m not capable of producing 4 flats, I’d still at least try and make their life less miserable, especially now, with my brother gone for NS and everything, and they’re lonely.

BUT WHY MUST THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN?

I noticed that, the harder I try at something, the further it is for me to reach that goal. I tried REALLY hard to please my parents, like, REALY, REALLY hard. I watched TV with them, teased them, ate meals with them, offered to help doing stuffs and all those shits, but it just had to end up backfiring, as always.

Just a while ago, I was helping my mum re-typing her timetable. I screwed it up the first time for using fancy letters, which apparently she was incapable of reading.

Fine. I re-typed it. Then my printer just had to go and get itself jammed. I tried fixing it for over an hour, and finally printed that darn thing out, and my mum rejected it. Alignment was out.

Fine. I re-typed it. I adjusted the tables and everything, and printed it out. My mum rejected it, and went berserk. I forgot to leave spacing in the middle. She then told me to gtfo and quit troubling her.

I was beyond pissed at this point. Pissed at myself. Wow how the fuck can this happen so many times in a row? There goes my chance to redeem myself in their eyes.

Fine. I re-typed it. And I slipped it inside her notebook. Hopefully she’ll accept it. But being as stubborn as me, she’d most probably come upstairs later, kick my door down, and tear the paper in front of me, before yelling insults at me and leaving the room.

I’m currently not in the mood to do anything, and am brooding about this incident over here. I noticed I haven’t updated my blog for over a month. Wow.

Oh shi- I think I hear my mum coming upstairs. Will post the aftermath soon.

PS: ドキドキドキドキドキ

HERE SHE COMES!!!